In giving to God one must surrender all. We must become less so that He can become more inside us. If we try to hold on to a little area that is purely our own and not part of God in us, then we hold onto an area of death and refuse the life that God offers us. We shouldn't seek to have a God-part of our lives and an ordinary part for ourselves. In short, do not compartmentalize. I'm terrible at this. I am the quintessential compartmentalizer.
In the end, if you don't choose the Kingdom of God over anything else it will not matter what you have chosen. That's a hard thought. It means that if you choose money or women or alcohol or even positive things like a good job, ambition, education these are all the same in God's eyes - the wrong choice. Lewis puts it bluntly, "Does it matter to a man dying in a desert by which choice of route he missed the only well?" (Lewis, The Weight of Glory).
Help me to get all my compartments filled with things of the Kingdom of God. Help me not to be distracted or to take hold of something as my own. Lewis thinks that you must fight against this on a daily basis, but in the end only God can fully force out our desire for 'limited liabilities' with God. We shouldn't sit back and let God do his thing. We ought to strive to accept the fullness of God in our daily devotions, confident that He will remove this desire for temporal things, the desire to compartmentalize and the desire to have something entirely of our own.
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